(I won’t say) I’m in love

Romantic relationships are not for me.  They require a degree of vulnerability and compromise that I am horrifically uncomfortable with. The thought of being accountable to another person and allowing someone else to influence my world in any way gives me nothing but the ick. 

Don’t get me wrong- I thoroughly enjoy men (obviously), but as they say- variety is the spice.  I have long preferred to structure my life exactly as I want, peppering in a few casual sexual partnerships to satisfy my cravings for physical intimacy and closeness.  Some BDSM partners, some vanilla- but all at an arm’s length.  I have a life to live, after all.

Wonderboy was one of those casual partners.  He is tall, not terrible to be around, great with his hands, and has an absolutely enormous cock- basically everything that I look for in casual sex.  We had easy, instant chemistry, and over a year of passionate, explosive sex.  He would come over every couple of weeks, absolutely annihilate me, and then leave me to go on about my business (once I could walk again). 

To make a long story short, the casual sex turned into snuggles, and laughter, and getting to know each other.  His heart on his sleeve approach was jarring, particularly for my decidedly more detached and aloof disposition.  He chipped away at me as if I were an intricate ice sculpture, until I found myself telling him my secrets and finding ways to make him laugh.

No one is more surprised than me that I fell in love.

Fear not, dear reader- inside this wonderful, patient, hilarious, thoughtful man with a giant cock, there is also a fair amount of open-mindedness.  He knew who he was falling in love with, and loves me for all of my layers- including the one where I don’t believe in monogamy, the one where I am an absolute monster in the morning, and also the one where I need regular BDSM sessions outside of our relationship to de-stress. 

This marks the first time I have ever been on the inside of an open relationship, and also the first time I have ever been on the inside of a loving adult romantic relationship. 

I’ll keep you posted.

Published by aliddell106

30 something woman- writer of erotica, blogger of all things BDSM and beyond. Tall, curvy, blonde; intelligent, grounded, hilarious. High pressure job, experienced submissive.

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