In stressful situations when we’re told to picture our happy place, most people picture a beach, a library, or maybe the gym. I picture myself with a throat full of cock, tears and spit running down my face, choking for air that isn’t mine to breathe. It is less about the place- I could easilyContinue reading “The Many Layers of Subspace”
Category Archives: Real Life
Vicious
“I have no intention of being anything other than vicious. Do you understand?” “Finally. Yes Sir.” His fingers were on my clit before my clothes were fully off. To my surprise, he let me cum on my first request, pinning me against the wall as my legs threatened to give out. He brought me backContinue reading “Vicious”
Cold (Warm?) Open
“In the shower, now,” he said when he came in the door. The edge in his voice was sharper than usual. I made my way to the washroom, pulling my shirt over my head. “Faster,” he ordered. “Someone’s in a mood,” I joked at his abruptness. He didn’t laugh. He was pissing on me beforeContinue reading “Cold (Warm?) Open”
Overdue
Before It has been more than a minute since I have submitted, and it shows. I have been doing some work on myself for the past few months, reflecting and learning and perhaps even growing a little. I’ve been sitting with discomfort, mining its origins, and reconciling it with my sense of self and future. Continue reading “Overdue”
Imagine
There is another piece of why that I have been trying to grasp. My very limited experience with past relationships has been fraught with exhausting calculation. I was constantly trying to mold myself into what my partners needed, but was never sure what exactly that would be- all I could do was minimize myself, andContinue reading “Imagine”
Starting with Why
I often say that my ultimate goal in submission is to please my partner- to hear that affirming, exhilarating “good girl”. I have very few bratty tendencies as a sub; I don’t want to be punished, I want to be praised- I want to excel, which is my general goal in all things. Love hasContinue reading “Starting with Why”
Roots
I started writing to process my early experiences in BDSM. During a debrief one night after a session, Mr. Grey (my first Dominant partner) instructed me to write the scene from my perspective. I hadn’t written anything non-academic since my teenaged melodramatic journaling, but I agreed to give it a try. He specifically said thatContinue reading “Roots”
Soaked
“I want my cock sucked in the rain. I’ll be there in ten minutes.” Not that I was busy in the kitchen prepping food for the weekend, or anything. I’m not one to say no to Mr. Intensity, so like a good girl my reply was a simple “yes Sir.” He came into the house,Continue reading “Soaked”
Submissive Writing Assignment
Tomorrow I want you to think about how best to worship the throbbing problem you’re causing me. What words to use. What makeup to wear. You said you like your lipstick. What’s your best cock slurping lipstick or gloss? I need to know how you’d try to impress me before I can see how muchContinue reading “Submissive Writing Assignment”
Distracted Driving
He tucked himself in behind me as I revved the ATV and put it into gear. I could feel it rumble between my legs as he adjusted my sundress to flow around me (and, as it turns out, to give him easy access). He put his arms around my waist as we started down theContinue reading “Distracted Driving”
Down the Rabbit Hole 