The First Time I Asked for Pain

A masochist is defined as someone who derives sexual gratification from pain.  I do not identify as a masochist- when I experience pain, particularly in a sexual context, I do not derive pleasure from it.  I feel the sting of a leather belt or the sharp bite of a nipple clamp for exactly what itContinue reading “The First Time I Asked for Pain”

Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 9-11 (Final)

This story is a prequel to Best Friends Forever, and Best Friends Forever part 2. Start at the beginning here. Jack He did not deserve Katie’s forgiveness, but he was committed to earning it for the rest of their relationship.  He had been awake most of the night trying to structure his apology, and ultimatelyContinue reading “Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 9-11 (Final)”

Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 7-8

This story is a prequel to Best Friends Forever, and Best Friends Forever part 2. Start at the beginning here. Jack It was the eye roll that did it.  Michelle had rolled her eyes at him as he pleaded with her to reconsider the breakup.  It felt so dismissive, so demoralizing- now seeing Katie rollContinue reading “Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 7-8”

Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 5-6

This story is a prequel to Best Friends Forever, and Best Friends Forever part 2. Start at the beginning here. Jack Jack stayed up for a few hours, letting Katie get into a deep sleep.  He finally crept back into her room, pausing to ensure that her breathing was deep and measured.  She hadn’t movedContinue reading “Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 5-6”

Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 3-5

This story is a prequel to Best Friends Forever, and Best Friends Forever part 2. Read Chapters 1-2 here. Katie When Jack left the apartment, Katie’s knees gave out and she crumbled on the floor.  Her mind was too rattled to cry; she just sat there in a numb fog for who knows how long. Continue reading “Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 3-5”

Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 1-2

This story is a prequel to Best Friends Forever, and Best Friends Forever part 2. Katie Katie was finished with men.  She really thought that the guys at college would be different- more mature, less terrified of commitment than the ones from her small-town high school.  It’s not like she wanted to get married orContinue reading “Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 1-2”

Learning to Cum, Part 2: Let it feel good

Read part 1 here. My body tensed in anticipation of his touch- where was he going to start?  I could feel his presence next to me- a quiet calm.  It was his voice I heard first.  “Relax your body,” he said, his voice gentle but even.  I unclenched my fists (when did I make fists?),Continue reading “Learning to Cum, Part 2: Let it feel good”

Becoming His Object

Remind me not to earn another punishment from Mr. Envelope. I knew it would be bad- the man gets under my skin like no other before or since him.  The mental gymnastics that he puts me through surpass the physical; when I play with him, I know that I am going to be challenged andContinue reading “Becoming His Object”

Learning to Cum: My Foray into Orgasm Control- Part 1

I had to lose control of my body to gain control of my orgasms. Prior to my foray into BDSM, I could not reliably cum with a partner.  Sure, I could get myself off- at an Olympic level pace- but with a partner I found it way too hard to stay in the moment.  InsteadContinue reading “Learning to Cum: My Foray into Orgasm Control- Part 1”