BDSM – Page 2 – Down the Rabbit Hole

Imagine

There is another piece of why that I have been trying to grasp. My very limited experience with past relationships has been fraught with exhausting calculation. I was constantly trying to mold myself into what my partners needed, but was never sure what exactly that would be- all I could do was minimize myself, andContinue reading “Imagine”

Starting with Why

I often say that my ultimate goal in submission is to please my partner- to hear that affirming, exhilarating “good girl”. I have very few bratty tendencies as a sub; I don’t want to be punished, I want to be praised- I want to excel, which is my general goal in all things. Love hasContinue reading “Starting with Why”

Roots

I started writing to process my early experiences in BDSM. During a debrief one night after a session, Mr. Grey (my first Dominant partner) instructed me to write the scene from my perspective. I hadn’t written anything non-academic since my teenaged melodramatic journaling, but I agreed to give it a try. He specifically said thatContinue reading “Roots”

Your First Day

You walk familiar hallways to a familiar office, stopping a few times for the requisite colleague weekend updates. Your eyes drift through the glass walls of the boardroom as surrounding voices lament the heat. It seems there’s a new face on the team. While it technically isn’t your first day of work- you’ve been withContinue reading “Your First Day”

Submissive Writing Assignment

Tomorrow I want you to think about how best to worship the throbbing problem you’re causing me. What words to use. What makeup to wear. You said you like your lipstick. What’s your best cock slurping lipstick or gloss? I need to know how you’d try to impress me before I can see how muchContinue reading “Submissive Writing Assignment”

Not a Word

“When I arrive, your front door will be unlocked. You will be naked in your bedroom. Your biggest dildo or vibrator will be in you. You will not speak during my visit- not a single word. The punishment for speaking will be…painful…and obvious, from the moment you see me.” I follow direction exceedingly well. WhenContinue reading “Not a Word”

Mr. Intensity’s New Toy

I love impact play. I pride myself in my stamina when faced with a Dom set on pushing my boundaries. While my body doesn’t translate pain to pleasure, I do get lost in the mindfulness that is required to compartmentalize each hit and prepare for the next. Feeling my body in that way is suchContinue reading “Mr. Intensity’s New Toy”

Choose Your Own Adventure

“I’m in a mood. Go upstairs, into the toy chest. Pick something that you want me to use, leave it on the nightstand- choose absolutely anything you want, but know that I WILL use it. You have five minutes. Be naked when I get up there.” In my career, I am well-known for my decisiveness,Continue reading “Choose Your Own Adventure”

The First Time I Asked for Pain

A masochist is defined as someone who derives sexual gratification from pain. I do not identify as a masochist- when I experience pain, particularly in a sexual context, I do not derive pleasure from it. I feel the sting of a leather belt or the sharp bite of a nipple clamp for exactly what itContinue reading “The First Time I Asked for Pain”

Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 9-11 (Final)

This story is a prequel to Best Friends Forever, and Best Friends Forever part 2. Start at the beginning here. Jack He did not deserve Katie’s forgiveness, but he was committed to earning it for the rest of their relationship. He had been awake most of the night trying to structure his apology, and ultimatelyContinue reading “Best Friends Forever: Prequel- Ch. 9-11 (Final)”