A masochist is defined as someone who derives sexual gratification from pain. I do not identify as a masochist- when I experience pain, particularly in a sexual context, I do not derive pleasure from it. I feel the sting of a leather belt or the sharp bite of a nipple clamp for exactly what itContinue reading “The First Time I Asked for Pain”
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Learning to Cum, Part 2: Let it feel good
Read part 1 here. My body tensed in anticipation of his touch- where was he going to start? I could feel his presence next to me- a quiet calm. It was his voice I heard first. “Relax your body,” he said, his voice gentle but even. I unclenched my fists (when did I make fists?),Continue reading “Learning to Cum, Part 2: Let it feel good”
Learning to Cum: My Foray into Orgasm Control- Part 1
I had to lose control of my body to gain control of my orgasms. Prior to my foray into BDSM, I could not reliably cum with a partner. Sure, I could get myself off- at an Olympic level pace- but with a partner I found it way too hard to stay in the moment. InsteadContinue reading “Learning to Cum: My Foray into Orgasm Control- Part 1”
Mr Grey (My First Dom)
In my mid to late 20s I took some time to find myself, and by that I mean have a lot of sex with whomever I wished, guilt-free. Some would call it a spiral, but I saw it as more of a liberation- the old “have sex like a man” adage, where I took whatContinue reading “Mr Grey (My First Dom)”
Edging Through the Five Stages of Grief
He came in the door, bending to greet the dogs before standing to his full height to meet my eyes. He took his time looking me up and down, appreciating my tanned legs and short sundress. He closed the gap between us in three steps, leaning into me so I could feel his breath whenContinue reading “Edging Through the Five Stages of Grief”
Hard Reset: Part 3
Read part 1 and part 2. I tilt my head back up at him, needing another kiss to settle. He licks my lips gently, touching his tongue to mine as our lips meet. “You need to cum once more baby, then you’re done, okay?” he says gently. I nod, not trusting my voice to answer.Continue reading “Hard Reset: Part 3”
Hard Reset: Part 2
Read part 1 here. My orgasm rips through me, releasing all of the tension and need that he built up in me as my pussy gushes around his fingers. My body convulses under his touch, as he slows the pace to a slow rub, demanding every single shiver he can from my body. He finallyContinue reading “Hard Reset: Part 2”
Hard Reset: Part 1
It’s been an excruciatingly long week. Every single work battle was uphill, and I hadn’t had a win all week. I could feel frustration and tension in my belly, a constant course through my bloodstream. The barking of the dog is grating, the thought of cooking dinner completely overwhelming. I have been for a run,Continue reading “Hard Reset: Part 1”
Down the Rabbit Hole 